I can’t really believe that i finally got the time to write my first thread in this wonderful forum! I have been willing to write it for days but i had exams and couldn’t really do anything in life except for studying. But yo, i just finished my mid-year exams and oh my lord it feels amazing! Fortnite all day, could it get any better? (Jk i’ll be working this time, i promise.)
Anywaaaay, back to the topic! Why i’m here today and why i’m creating this thread is to talk about life decisions. So as you already know by now, i got one term left and then i’ll be heading to my last year of high school & then off to uni. Since most of you aren’t familiar with the Egyptian learning system, the last year of high school is probably hell on Earth. 10 Months of doing nothing except for studying, doing homework and going to your sessions. It’s a complete disaster, you are unable to do any other activity as school is taking 99% of your time. Feeling always pressured, burnt out & tired is how i could describe how the year goes. And unfortunately, you really need this year. It’s the year which will decide your career, your social status & what’s around. It’s the year in which you’ll either be a doctor, engineer or perhaps a homeless guy if you really get low grades.
And for me, the pressure starts from now. In the second term, i will be asked to fill an application if i want to study the Scientific science section or the Scientific Mathematics section. And basically, why this application is so important is that it will limit the colleges you are applying for. For example, if you decide on the Scientific science, you can’t apply in a uni to be an engineer. But you have the choice to apply to be a doctor, a pharmacist…etc.
With that being said, I really need to plan and decide what i want to be in the future. When i asked my friends what they want to be when they grow up, they were actually so specific and confident about their choice. They know what they want to be and already are working for it. Me in the other hand, i got no clue.
The main issue with me is that when i try to decide, i start off by looking at the available colleges for the Scientific Mathematics section as this is what i’m willing to apply for. (As i don’t wan’t to be a doctor or anything related to that section. I hate Biology. I do love to know facts about the human body but not to study the full photosynthesis process with all of it’s enzymes and definitions godammit.) Back to what i was saying, i guess i’ll be heading towards the Scientific Mathematics section not because i want to be an engineer, but because i don’t have other choices. I don’t want to be an engineer either, it’s not something i would like to do for the rest of my life.
I have a difficulty on figuring out what i want to be. Many of those who know me in person have recommended me to go for computer science cause they know i’m a tech/computer geek. But to be honest, i’m not interested in this either. I don’t know, it’s just that i don’t want to wake up every morning and go to work at 8am to solve some complex codes, build a bunch of websites/programs and go home. This is not at all what i’m willing to do for the rest of my 40+ years.
My apology if this was a really boring and long thread, but here comes the exciting and discussion part. How did you guys decide your own paths? Was it easy? hard? do you regret the decision you took? love it?
This is so frustrating for me to be honest. I’m not sure what i want to do in life. I think part of me is heading towards the fact that i just want to build like a business or something that i would be able to maintain myself and live the adventure with all it’s negatives and positives. Work with the skills i have and obtain new ones if i’m willing to. Learn new things on the go & adding it to my career.
See, this sounds much more fun, exciting and something i would be willing to do everyday for the rest of my life. But i know that it also sounds cliche and practically impossible as i still need to decide my career.
Yeah as you can tell, i’ve been always supporting the idea of dropping out of high school and putting the same amount of time and effort in studying something i love. In our society tho, dropping out of high school means not getting this degree which is essential for EVERY SINGLE JOB you’re willing to apply to in Egypt.